I'm a unitard

I am really lonely, but scared to death of ever being in another relationship.  I just want someone to care about me.  It just seems like when you talk to other people they just don’t really care…they are just waiting for their turn to talk.  I want someone to want me.  To care about what happened with me.

My awareness level is too high.  Sometimes I wish I was just a blissfull idiot who just didn’t always care about what other people thought.  I can’t change it, though.  I’m fucking hard-wired this way. 

I just want to be happy.  Sometimes I wonder if that is really possible.  Life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness, right?  I feel like that is the pursuit of the unobtainable.

Happiness is a long way from survival.